fairitalianlady's Journal

My dinner with "Kaiser"
Indeed, yes, I had my dinner last night with the VP of Kaiser Permanente and I did entertain the notion of being the next Anna Nicole Smith for a brief and stupid moment. I could easily be except that in this case there is not quite so grotesque an age gap: I'm 24 and he is SOMEWHERE between 40 and 60 and I'd like to think I'm not quite as coked out as Anna Nicole Smith. So I thought just for the hell of it, out of both curiosity and politeness, I would accept this guy's invitation to dinner and I had a nice time honestly. He's a very jovial, sophisticated old-world Turkish born gentleman who seems to be genuinely optomistic and pleased with his life and his work. Had a lovely dinner at P. F. Chiang's in the Paseo Colorado complex and then another glass of wine (with olives and feta--SO Mediterranean of us) on his balcony (he naturally lives in the obscenely expensive apartments adjacent to the shopping center where we ate at). BUT he still refused to tell me how old he was--I told him I was 24 and I think he definitely has to be older than 50 or "biologically advanced" as he put it. But SERIOUSLY, I can't picture really dating him--taking him to parties with me or God, Ms Kitty's for that matter, with his full head of grey hair and little suit jacket on and yes, he's handsome for his age (whatever the hell that is--he might be older than 50!) but I'm not attracted to him in that way.

Plus, the more I talk to Mr G, the more interested I'm becoming in him and wanting to date him exclusively. He is simply very charming, complimentary, interesting, sexy, funny, sensitive, insightful, sincere, and courteous and that is pretty damn hard to come by. He has some "baggage", which is actually a term I hate using, but I can't help but want to get to know him better.

Speaking of age, he just had his 40th birthday, which, odd as this sounds (or maybe not at this point) I think that is probably the perfect age for me "man-wise". And I've decided to be a jerk and for now lump all guys in their 20s together or at least any guys who would be interested in dating me. Here are some generalities I've found: 1) I have NEVER had a truly satisfying sexual experience with a man in his 20s--don't know why exactly, maybe it's an experience thing, but I just haven't 2) I mentally and emotionally don't feel 24 years old--closer to 34 is how I feel inside but I've always been an old soul and actually my "weird" tastes in "old" music and movies and whatever turns a lot of guys my age off but turns a lot of guys older than me on and I can actually connect with them on these things 3) The majority of 20-some year old guys I know (excluding of course, my very mature acting male friends who are in their 20s) don't have nearly the confidence or "togetherness" of someone in their 30s or 40s. I don't think that I'm so much better than twenty-some year old guys or anything like that but I need a man with a certain level of maturity in order for me to be comfortable. I'm not saying that there isn't a guy out there in his 20s who has all of these qualities that I have mentioned, I'm just saying I haven't found him yet. So yes, it is a little funny but needless to say, it's a reality, at least so far for me. But I also don't want to limit my options and be close minded in any way. We'll just have to see what the future brings........

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Maybe by Janis Joplin

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