Current mood:	calm
Current music:	Reno 911! Theme (that's what I've been watching all day)

Almost recovered.........
Damn it! Had to cancel my meeting with my agent today--I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm completely psychotic at this point but my eye was still in excruciating pain this morning and I knew I wouldn't be able to drive. I'll bring in my doctor's receipt next time--he really would have no other reason to believe me--he doesn't know anything about me and I want to assure him that I had every intention of going but was physically unable. So I spent the day recuperating--more tea, more vitamins, actually eating food, and I'm starting to feel better. I'm going out dancing at Boardners with my little buddy Phil tonight--I actually think some physical activity would be good for me at this point. I just have to dress a little warm when I go out to ward off any more illness--it's starting to get a little cold at night out here and the last thing I need is to be sick right now.

Ok the LAST word on Fuckhead, for real this time. Actually called Fuckhead back last night--stayed classy about it too. The beauty of it all is that he sounded utterly traumatized by our little "break up"--I mean, really very affected by it--he said all this stuff about how he felt he "lost a friend, had his other friends around him for support, blah, blah, blah" so he is not completely without remorse but even still he wasn't able to give a decent explanation for his behavior other than "sometimes yoga brings out certain emotional aspects of himself that he unwittingly projects on other people." Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiggghhhhht........ So we concluded that we would "keep the dialogue open" which I honestly don't know what that means (does anybody?) but I really don't think I have any reason to subject myself to any more drama or disappointment. But I feel good about my behavior in this whole thing and I don't regret any anything (other than me not saying "You know for a Buddhist, you're a real asshole.")LOL!

So Star just called me--I'm modeling for her photography assignement tomorrow--as Talulah Bankhead, a silent film actress who I look a lot like--so I'll be off to the Pasadena Art Center tomorrow--perhaps I'll run into Joseph or Fuckhead #2 who I could very well call him half the time--I know he'll be there tomorrow--meet him after the shoot for dinner, something a bit more scandalous?